After several mornings of violent vomiting, my brain began to whirr and come up with possible causes, food poisoning, an allergic reaction, a bug, pregnancy. PREGNANCY?! I exclaimed to myself. I tried to convince myself that the signs I was seeing weren't there but there was no getting away from it, I was totally pregnant. That was the exact moment everything from the blur of a night came back to me. A guy, I'd met a guy... Leighton. I remembered going back to his house. I remember a silly pillow fight and waking up his kid. I remembered snogging him... and more... |
How DARE he get me pregnant. HOW on Earth was I going to cope with a baby when I was living in a ruined toilet block!!! I called this Leighton guy over and prepared to confront him.
He arrived and I told him the news abruptly, it went a little something like this: Hi Hi, just so you know, I'm carrying your child! He looked shocked, and, if I'm honest, a little pleased! That did not go down well with me. What are you so pleased about! I can't cope with a baby! Until this morning I was living in a tumbledown toilet block! I..Uh.. I'm not pleased. Erm..Sorry and all that, are..are you going to keep it? I don't know yet! And FYI sorry and all that is not the response I was looking for. Get off my property! And he walked off without another word. I was left fuming. Of course I was going to keep the baby, as criminal as I am I couldn't take a human life, no matter how small and unborn. Besides, though I hated to admit it, I already loved this baby more than anything in the world. It gave me a sense of perspective. I wouldn't say I was grateful for it, but I wouldn't say I wished it had never happened, either. I wanted to be a good mum and so I used up my emergency funds building a little shack for us to live. Being so pregnant you can hardly walk and living by the side of the road kind of counts as an emergency in my books. It was dark, had only one room and no sink, but it would do. I bought a cooker and went to the library to learn how to cook. I was going to make things work, one way or another. |